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Literature
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I feel so
confused
Yes
confused
I'm so happy
and
so sad
lost
frustrated
I should smile
more
cry
less
and yet
here I am
confused
what has happened to
me
what have I become
I look in the mirror
and hate who I
am
and yet
can not seem to fix myself
cannot find why he cares
cannot find why I love
Im never good enough
In my own mind
realistically and
depressively
Im never good enough
for others
for him
I will stare into his eyes
and almost cry
because he deserves better
I know it
Im being realistic
and Im being
I
am
depressed
what have I done wrong
WHAT SIN DID I COMMIT
to only be happy for such
a small amount of time
Sure he makes me smile
But knowing he deserves better
knowing that eventually
I will need to make him stop
caring for me
WHY CANT I FIND HAPPINESS BEYOND HIM
why do I want to cry
all
the
time
Why
What
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Literature
Every Smile Simply Shatters
Every Smile
Simply
Shatters
But
Every Thought
Grows stronger
Lessons
Learned
Battles
Fought
Blood
Lost
Tears
Cried
But
There is
Hope
For
Every
Fallen
Man
"Dont
Give
Up"
"You
Can
Get
It
Back"
.
.
.
.
As many tears that have fallen
Many still have
Not
Been
Wasted
"I
Can
Get
It
Back"
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(unfinished) Blue, Purple, Green, and Black by jesusfreak995 (unfinished) Blue, Purple, Green, and Black :iconjesusfreak995:jesusfreak995 3 2 (unfinished) one feather left by jesusfreak995 (unfinished) one feather left :iconjesusfreak995:jesusfreak995 1 0
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Burn's Beauty :iconjesusfreak995:jesusfreak995 0 0
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The Family Blood Alternate Ending :iconjesusfreak995:jesusfreak995 0 0
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The Family Blood :iconjesusfreak995:jesusfreak995 0 0
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The Family Blood :iconjesusfreak995:jesusfreak995 0 0
Literature
Reflections
"Reflections"
Looking into that mirror
What do I see?
A failure of a child
A failure of me
What have I done now?
Lied
Sure that's it
A sin
A sin that tore me
From myself
From my God
From getting closer to the me I want to be
From getting closer to the king I can't wait to see
From getting closer with the family who loves me
I messed up, big time
I messed up
I lied
I need to stop
I need to stop tearing myself away
Away from love
Away from God
Why do I keep doing this?
Keep hurting
Keep disappointing
Keep ripping
Keep digging
Hurting those I love
Those who love me
Keep disappointing myself
The people who care and worry about me
Keep ripping us apart
And I keep digging
My own grave
A hole that I will struggle to climb out of
I'm sorry I really am
But I can't go back in time
And I can't be perfect
I can try
But I will lie
Again
I won't want to
And I won't not want to
I can't do much now
I'm sorry
I will be better in the future
I will still screw up
But I will try to be better
I'm sorry
Wha
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Literature
Monologue - the runaway
   My head was pounding faster than my feet as they slapped down on the asphalt. I was running away, but I don't know what from or where to. I had a bag on my shoulder with my second favorite tee shirt, shorts, pants, extra sweater, toiletries, wallet, laptop, pillow, e-reader, and a knife. My phone was gripped tightly in my hand, where the hell was I going, I didn't know. Dorry's "just keep swimming" song from finding nemo sprang into my head and I got an extra little boost of speed and a laugh escaped my lips. I slowed to a walk, I was far enough from the house, from the empty hell hole. I walked for about an hour and a half. I ended up in between the highway and the trailer park. I started to cry, I couldn't help it. A black car drove by and stopped behind me. One of my friends got out of the passenger side.
   "You ok?"
   "Not really"
   "What's with the bag?" I decided I had to tell him, I had to tell someone.
 
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Literature
I Wonder
This is why I am not allowed to think, to ponder, to wonder
I wonder
What you would do if you could see my thoughts
What would you think
What would you do
Would you think I'm crazy
Would you make my dreams come true
I wonder
What you would do if you could see my cuts
What would you do
What would you think
Would you hold me close
Would you shut me out
I wonder
What you would do if I punched you
What would you think
What would you do
Would you hug me as I stood there and cried after
Would you get angry like you should
I wonder
What you would do if I called your name in the darkest place
What would you do
What would you think
Would you laugh at me like a fool
Would you save me
I wonder what you would do if I couldn't be found
What would you think
What would you do
Would you cry
Would you search
Would you try
Would you lie
To find me
To come to terms with yourself
I wonder
What
Would
Happen
..
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Literature
Empty Room
The Empty Room
Is anyone there?
Screams echo off the empty walls
Don't forget about
These empty halls
………
Blood pounds in my head
Tears streak my face
Outside a crowd is laughing
Outside a crow caws
I am left here alone
……..
In this empty room
……
Thoughts rush through my head
Pain rushes though my blood
Darkness blurs my vision
Light creeps through a window
But I slam the shutters
Leave me alone
Or push me to a crowd
Don't mix the two
Or else see me collapse
Or else see me die
…….
Screams
Tears
Cries
Fears
……..
Memories are taped to these walls
Of every time I have lied and falled
Leave me to this place
The fortress I have built
From the outside in
Let me lie here
And let me live here
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Literature
Not The Mask
Not the mask
Smiles
Masks painted onto my face
Joy
Mask painted over my heart
Frowns
Covered by simple painted on smiles
Tears
Pain
Covered simply by joy painted over
……
Love
Love can wash it off
Love
Love can shatter the dry paint like glass
Love
Love can chip it away
Love
Love can scrape it off
Love can find the true
Smiles
The true
Joy
Love can
Wipe away the frowns
Love can
Wipe away the tears
Love can heal the pain
Love can make it go away
Remove your mask
REMOVE SOMEONE ELSE'S MASK
<3
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Literature
reach out YOUR hand
Alone I sit
In a ball
Empty in myself
Empty in this world
…..
Alone
………  
Alone except for
My thoughts
That beat me as much as they do
My cuts
That takes the pain away
These tears
The only warmth
……..
But as I sit a hand reaches out
And pulls me up
……
I look and see you
You smile
I stand taller
You hold me
I stand stronger
You tell me I will be alright
I will the next fight
You show me….
The truth….
You made me stronger
Strong enough to help someone else up
You made me stand taller
Tall enough to see their lies
You told me it would be alright
Alright to stand up and fight
……
You taught me how to hold out my hand
And make someone
Strong
Tall
Not ready to fall
The next fight is won
By
Us
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Literature
Appologies
Appologies
You think that
the appologies will help
whats done is done
your appologies
ease it
but your appologies
also burn like the blood in my
veins
everything you have done
every thing you have said
everything ever
has made its mark
have left it's scar on my lifeline
on my thoughts
on my actions
on everything I am
everything I thought I was
I will never regret anything
and I hope that
neither will you
but I hope you know
that forever you will be
on my mind
its my fault that
I let myself fall for you
its my fault
that I am not,
her
your appologies
mean as much
as the promises that you wont keep
but
I,
I do appologize
i appologize for this
all of this
for being the one who is
messing up
for being the one
who the problem
Im sorry...
I am so sorry
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  • Listening to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NGhXjCuucLI&amp;lis
  • Reading: the piece of crap i have done for my paper
  • Watching: ..... stupid people do stupid things
  • Playing: miniclip.com
  • Eating: air cuz im starving
soooo

im in university

WATTTTTTTTTTTT

MMMMMMMmmmmmmm cute university boys

anyway

tattoo designs in the works
wishing i could write more
wishing i could post more
wishing i could do more art

eh
i should be writing a 4 page paper at the moment
UGH
I DONT WANNA

UGH

your fave jesusfreak

oh ps for music

for those who need to study with music

this is the best



yahhh

kk bye

ps alot of stuff has happened this past year that has almost silenced me

to all those out there
who are lost
dont know how to take the next step
are bullied
have been or are
sexually abused
or harassed
suffering from a mental disorder
or just in pain

you arent alone
if you want to talk im here

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Lilhu Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2013  Professional Interface Designer
Ty for the Favourite!! :D
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craneHARDCORE Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2013   General Artist
Thanks for the favourite!
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[link] to your :+fav:s
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2012  Professional Writer
Hi there,

This message is probably a little overdue (like weeks overdue xD), but I want to thank you so much for watching me. I hope that you'll continue to enjoy the kind of work that I do and keep reading my poetry and literary works. :iconawwwplz:

Also, in case you didn't know I have a live youtube episode of WordofChen that is released every sunday! :iconplanningplz:

If you'd like to check it out, the links can be found on every poem :iconhandsomeonionplz:

If you're interested in my facebook or other stuff. Just check out my main page or send me a note (if lazy) :iconherotimeplz:

Alrighty, thanks again and bye for now :iconbaibaiplz:

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates
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jesusfreak995 Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
<3 aww no problem and i sooo am going to :)
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank ye ^^

-Captain Chenbeard o' the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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KittenOfTheShadows Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the favs on my fanfiction! :glomp:
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tlfunk Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2012
Stopped by to thank you for adding, Sugarbush Farm, to your favorites. I really appreciate you kindness. I hope you have a wonderful weekend.
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Jones-chan Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2012  Student General Artist
Thanks for the Fav ^^
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